Bed

The mane of crowning glory we see here is the after effects of a night spent with jz in bed. It's pretty fun hehe.

Book out days

Today has been a great day from start all the way to the end :)

Woke up late but to a very nice surprise because jz was gonna book out earlier than we expected him to! Had to rush to get dressed and head down to pick him up, but managed to wolf down a bazhang before leaving house because really, who can resist bazhangs :3

Paced around for pretty long around white sands because it was extremely uncomfortable with all the NS boys staring...couldn't take it so I went into the mall but was back out and pacing again before long. Saw a flood of NS guys with jz (finally!), so we hopped onto a train to simei for Istanbul! Later that day jz had this section mate who texted him saying that "your girlfriend quite pretty ah", which jz followed by a comment that the whole crowd turned to stare very pointedly at us haha.

Had a good lunch, bought this really pretty watch, then cabbed back to jz's place. Eiki's getting more docile which is good because I used to get clawed by him in his excitement. Had some really good tunghoon and flavoured bakwa (every time jz books out, its feast day. So much food!! But the tunghoon was really yummy hehe), and some good air con in the hot afternoon sun.

Decided to go watch Dark Shadows which we wanted to for a long time at Century Square. Cabbed down to tampines, and chanced upon this army open house which was the cause of launch of another tirade from him. Quite amusing actually. The movie was not bad! But twiligh essentially ruined all vampire movies for me. Stephenie Meyer deserves to be burned zz. Otherwise I would have been quite impressed at the decorum of the gentlemanly Barnabas Collins. Loved the cast though, think it saved the movie. And the whole vintage feel of it too.

Spent the whole day virtually glued together. It was amusing because it used to be perfectly normal for us to walk just side by side with no contact at all on the streets! In fact I actually did enjoy the freedom of mobility that gave me haha. But I literally morphed into one of those horrible kind of couples who hug on escalators. It was fully spontaneous and very voluntary in fact because the next few days.....6 days worth of outfield with no ways of conacting him at all. Oh god whyyyyy

Popped down to Yamakazi to get the mochi bread (my favvvv) before heading back home. Found a letter from NTU sitting at home waiting for me and guess what it wrote: they extended my Nanyang Scholarship to cover the Masters portion of my university studies! I actually really cannot wait to start studying again, especially what I really love. After which I'd graduate with a Masters in 4 years! By research. Its actually a wonderful wonderful time to satisfy all that I've been curious about. Like neurotoxins and snake venom and aromatherapy.

Oh my electone exam song list came in the mail too. If its any consolation, I don't have to practice the Hungarian Dance anymore, horrible song. Legend of the Sea can actually replace that, which is really good because thats one less song to practice! Though I think I'm still going to fail it sigh.

GSS is here! Gonna go out to do some shopping soon :) ended the day by buying a pair of wedges, a skirt and a top online. It's been a really good day for me :)

I hope the following week passes smoothly for Jz with his field camp and all, may he have good weather and clothes that are not as dirty and no roots to dig, tents that don't collasp in, and Sit tests he completes smoothly. And that he'll be out safely, in no time at all. It does sound like a lot to ask for, but I'll keep my fingers crossed!

Not now, not again.

Somewhere deep down something clicks, and you just know. Talked to two people brimming with confidence today....it was good I think. Led me to realise that it does affect the things you do. The way you dance. The things you get to be exposed to.

I don't need to live on praises, or on affirmation. I'll just do things my way because it's my life after all :) no such thing as missing things because I don't dare to. Nobody notices unless you're worth noticing anyway.

Sundays now

No tomorrow isn't going to be a normal day. I'm going to lose him again to another interminable week of 3 minute phone calls and hunkering down beside my phone in a jumpy and anxious manner z. It nags at the back of my conscience that if I dare lay down to sleep, tomorrow will come and that means another goodbye.

Personal space

The lesser the physical distance between us, the more you know I don't mind you. You know you've crossed the don't-mind threshold and into the like-you area when I ask to go out with you.

No nonsense about how much I tell you, or how much I pay attention to you. It's really just about how close I can bear you being to me.

It's that simple, really.