Weakness

I cant help it, I need an outlet for this. I don't like people who let their hearts rule their heads. It's not that bad if they're making rash decisions that would make them happy, what's really bad's the kind who indulge in self pity and claim that that's them. That is weakness that I cannot stand.

I don't harbour hate, but I do for distaste. You're gonna have to battle on harder and turn the tides. You cant sit back and say 'this is me, vulnerable and under attack. I'm sad, oh how sad and weak I am. And that's me.' The shame. Shame shame shame. How can anybody wallow in pity and live in denial, then self-loathe from a situation that they can very well get themselves out of?

I have my downs and setbacks too. But they're not me, my moods don't define who I am as a person. The set of values, and your beliefs do. Even if I believed that vulnerability is essential to a person, I'd accept that one day I might break down and cry. And only that. I'd not accept that i'd allow myself to stay stuck in that rut forever.

But vulnerability is something that I don't buy. That's probably one of my greatest weaknesses, I have pride too great to reveal my weakness, not to things that matter to me anyway, things that I take pride in doing. I can't stand weakness in others too. If others can stand up after a fall, why can't you?

Nothing's too hard to get back from. I don't judge based on the merit of the situation, for people have different capacities for setbacks. I judge the situation on how much it'll take of your inherent strength to get back up unaided. And that if you've conquered a similar obstacle before of not. Because if you have, then you have no reason to not do it again.

I cannot take weakness, of myself or others. If you're too weak, then be prepared to take the consequences. If you can't swallow them, then you jolly well grow stronger.




As with every post, this is for myself, writing as if nobody reads this space. This space has always been (and will always be) not for public viewing but a place for me to record my thoughts. And the very reason that it's not private, is that if it's fit for me to write it down, it should have enough moral standing for me to not be ashamed of sharing the issue.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to appear too hard hearted. It's just that the words come out harsher, because I have very resolute stands. I am extremely partial to the sweets in life, and then I'd sound very whimsical. It's just a matter of getting what you have off your chest, you know?

Okay an old dog (I was about to say puppy but affint's far from that) to lighten the mood. This is affint, a jack russell that's so docile she trots around without a leash. She quivers in thunderstorms, and she's very vulgar when she demands a belly rub :)