School talk

Second part of my post, something more down-to-earth and relevant: an update on my current choices for academic pursuits.

Ever since I screwed up a few papers for my As, I've been seriously considering a backup plan for if I didn't get accepted into NUS pharmacy- Chemistry. By extension, I've also been toying around the idea of teaching as a career.

I was never interested in teaching as a career. I never had those worldly aspirations of imparting knowledge, nor have ever found it as a calling. This alarms me as I find myself unconsciously veering towards education all of a sudden. Applying for tuition agencies. Reading up on education systems. Learning about the structure of languages. Applying for jobs as facilitators of educational camps. And the most startling thing??

I find myself no longer looking at monetary remunerations of a job, but instead at the fullness of the experience it offers.

I have no idea why I feel this way. It is by no means a bad thing I admit, but its so sudden that it gives this slight fear that I'm making myself feel this way, instead of naturally wanting to teach. Is this where the cowardly reference from my dream comes into the picture, that I'm going to give up my aspirations of studying about pharmaceuticals, just because I fear that I'm never going to make it in?

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On a brighter note, that isn't really the end. I have been browsing through NUS's pages and I found another very very interesting alternative. Pharmacy major, with forensic science minor. I would LOVE to study that. But the workload,....................On one hand I love being busy but on the other, thats what we always say, before we're thrown into the tempest of work during which all that we can do is to struggle to stay afloat instead of going down under, right?

Its just that life is so leisurely now, that I cannot estimate the scale or magnitude of workload with much accuracy. I'm really looking forward to March right now, that I have an alternative to turn to should my plans for NUS Pharmacy go to naught. :)

Other updates:
- applying for NTU early admission, Chemistry
- giving up USP. Too cowardly. Abysmal confidence at interdisciplinary studies.
- going to commit to the CVDE (combined varsity dance ensemble, by Peter Gn. I don't actually call it the CVDE, it just sounds cooler this way hahaha. We just call it the "Peter Gn thing")